Lost

Crystal quit the band. How could she- I encouraged her, let her hear my originals- we all gave her reinforcement- and are good. Aren't we? Anne's on my case about being on the computer, not cleaning garage, worried I don't want to return to work. I am entering a depression at a bad time- making all and any of these things and others more difficult.

Thanksgiving's over. Life goes on at BCSD and everywhere else. I went to Binghamton and Oneonta looking for.. something. Most of it is gone. It's the past. Where are we going? More behind me than in front of me, I fear. This is why I stopped the world and got off- to clean the garage?.... "Clean clutter?" I'm fucking starving for stimulation and creativity.

Hilary Clinton

It is not arrogance, but a refusal to consider defeat or failure. Muhammed Ali refused to be beaten, as he was The Greatest. He usually wasn't (beaten).

It is beyond thinking positively- it is the visualization of success and victory she is drawing upon to persevere. Look what she's up against? A lot of snotty sexists, for one thing.